This fall, I faced the toughest situation of my life. I felt like I was falling apart at the seams. It seemed like every area of my life was crumbling, from my faith to my finances.
I did something dangerous, something I’m pretty ashamed to admit: I stopped praying.
I was in desperate need—spiritually, emotionally, and, yes, financially.
Last year, I left my job due to health circumstances and started my own online business. While this has been a blessing in many ways, I can’t say it was a financially great move for me THEN. It was rough making ends meet in 2018. I fell into the trap of using credit cards to pay off some medical bills and monthly expenses.
By fall, I was in serious trouble both physically and financially. When I suffered a difficult blow, I was hit with even higher medical bills. Then I was REALLY in trouble.
That’s when I stopped praying. I felt that my choices had contributed to my financial situation. I felt guilty.
But God didn’t care about that. He showed up anyway.
There were so many people praying for me while I was in the deep dark, worried and in physical pain. He never looked away, even though I was afraid to look at him.
That’s when he started to bless me.
At first, it was subtle. Then it became astonishing. At this point, it’s overwhelming.
In December, I was living with my aunt, and I had no idea how I was going to pay my bills. She has a history as a financial advisor and helped me set up a budget.
I remember sitting there, looking at the spreadsheet, feeling so bleak. There just wasn’t enough money. Plain and simple.
But the end of the month came and, miraculously, there was enough to go around! This lender was willing to be lenient, this unexpected gift had come in, and so on and so forth.
I couldn’t believe it! Not only did I have enough to cover the bills, I had money to spare!
I have never been so grateful to see a new year in all my life. I started praying again, which probably says something about my faith, but it’s the truth. Sometimes you need to see God work after this world hurts you.
And on January 2, 2019, God began to open doors for my business. When I say he opened doors, I mean he threw open the floodgates! He has been overwhelming me with blessings and opportunities. It’s been truly humbling and awe-inspiring.
I’m not a believer in the whole prosperity gospel thing. In fact, I wasn’t really following God all that faithfully when all this went down. I believe that God blesses us when he chooses to and when we need it most.
His love and generosity at my darkest moment totally transformed my life—again.
God is so good. He will provide, even when we least expect it.
Finance used to be an area that I felt I had to take care of. I kept a tight hold on it—with pretty poor results. In the few months that I’ve let God take charge, I’ve experienced more abundance than I could have ever imagined.
I say this to encourage you. I want you to know that he has your WHOLE LIFE—finances included—under control. And he can take so much better care of it than you ever could yourself.
Will you let him?